Dear Future Husband

I just wanted to write to you and tell you that

I'm giving up on you for right now.

This is 21-year-old me,

and she's really stressing herself out,

She's even writing about herself in third person,

She's stressed out waiting for you.

She's done a lot of work on herself.

She's come far in that she knows she deserves you.

But the waiting is making her second-guess

All the confidence-building she's done up to now.

She has to stop believing in you

In order to avoid erasing the progress she's already made.

It's no insult to you.

Take your time.

She is ready for you,

So she'll be ready for you for whenever you're ready for her.

Who knows what you're up to now.

You could be dating someone else,

You could be in a toxic relationship,

Or you could be where she was years ago.

You could be in a mental health crisis,

And maybe you have to get through it

Like she did.

And maybe you feel like no one will ever want you,

Like she did.

Maybe you have to be there

Before you'll both be ready to talk about it together.

Patience is something she struggles with.

When she says take your time,

she's just being polite.